Episode 10: It Was Only Just a (Fever) Dream
Audio Transcript

SPEAKERS – Hayley Smith-Rose, Becca Howard

Hayley  00:04
Becca, we all knew this day would come and we’ve had so much fun with fever dream diaries, we’ve made it to the finale, our 10th episode, but what do you think about doing a season two maybe?

Becca  00:17
Like when we go to college?

Hayley 00:20
Are you kidding? We haven’t even passed first semester of high school. I think we have a bit to go

Becca  00:25
Right. This isn’t like a graduation. This is like next semester time

Hayley  00:30
we definitely do look forward to a season two and hope to invite some input from our listeners or maybe any notes that y’all have. We’d love to read them in the future. But in the meantime, please enjoy episode 10.

Becca  00:45
Welcome to fever Dream Diaries.

Hayley  00:47
Becca, you know, they say all good things must come to an end. Luckily, this isn’t that good of a thing. Kidding, welcome to the finale of Season One of fever dream diaries, shall we unpack our emotions about the reunion for a brief moment?

Becca  01:06
Yeah, I would love to. I’m still not really recovered

Hayley 01:10
No, emotionally, physically, both

Becca  01:12
And my car – There’s a lot of lights in there.

Hayley
You should keep those that actually is a good time.

Becca
You know, remember when we were walking out of the restaurant before the reunion and those people were like, Is that your car?

Hayley
Yes, they loved it. I was so excited.

Becca
We left all of our fun lights on inside the cars when we went in to get some food before the reunion and people in the parking lot were like,

Hayley  01:35
We got the people talking with the fever dream machine.

Becca  01:41
That’s too long to be a license plate, like fever dream I want

Hayley  01:46
I think you can work out an acronym for it. I think we can make that work for the next reunion for our 20th reunion. We’ll do that

Becca  01:53
if any of our listeners would like us to drive our fever dream machine to their house.

Hayley 01:58
Oh my gosh, yes. Invite us over us.

Becca  02:01
Yeah we’ll come over. You don’t have to tell us your name or use a pseudonym.

Hayley  02:05
We’ll come over and we’ll bring the machine. Absolutely. So I really do feel like the reunion was a great experience. Obviously, we had really high hopes and were building it up. So a part of me was a little bit nervous it wouldn’t turn out as well as we wanted it to. And even though we didn’t get some of the main characters in our story, I think that the people we did get were amazing and filled in enough gaps that we have a full story and I feel very satisfied with it.

Becca  02:33
I do too. I feel like we learned more than if Cory and Jane were there.

Hayley  02:38
You know what, weirdly enough, yeah, I agree. So with that being said, you know, we would like to be back for season two, potentially, we’re not going to try to wait til our 20th reunion because I can’t guarantee we’re going to make it that far you guys, to be honest. So if you would like to send us your journal entries or notes or any artifacts you have from your time in high school, please do that at feverdreamdiaries.com or any of our social media. We’d love to see it. I hate for this to come to an end Becca, but I feel like we have a really great note that we could use to unpack in this final time together. What do you think?

Becca  03:16
I love that and you have not read this?

Hayley  03:19
No. So Becca sent me this one. I just am looking at the date. It’s from December 14 2006. And no, I intentionally didn’t want to read it until I could read it to y’all.

Becca  03:29
I love that. I brought it up with me on the Amtrak. And this one is extra special because I think it was like a love letter.

Hayley  03:42
Honestly, they all kind of were. Do you want to give any other type of intro to it?

Becca  03:47
Um, well I feel like maybe our listeners haven’t seen like all of the notes from you to me and I have so let me just say this one is like an extra layer of loving on me. And that’s why I want her to read it. I sound like a great friend. I want to hear you say all the beautiful things about me but also it’s so sweet that you wrote this and you knew we were going to be friends. It’s like you predicted reading this. I actually did cry. You might, but you’re not as like sensitive of a little baby as me

Hayley 04:22
I don’t know if that’s true

Becca  04:25
You keep it together better.

Hayley  04:27
Wow, I think you’re giving me more credit than I deserve. So without further ado, let’s see if Becca’s right. Rebecca “Reba” Howard if you’re getting this letter it’s probably a year after I wrote it. Haha that’s freaky but you love it. I don’t know where we are right now in our friendship but I do know what’s going on as of December 14, 2006. One love, one shot is all we ever got, babe. I just want to tell you I love you and thank you for all you’ve done for me. you helped me through so many hard times. Thanks for letting me vent, babe, and I want to let you know I’m always here for you whenever you need me just call, and I mean that from the bottom of my heart. It is true. I’ll always mean that. Cheetah sisters forever, love, and wherever life takes us in the future – we’re holding hands now – we will always be together can you say Prada or nada baby

Becca
Prada or Nada!

Hayley  05:30
Watch out California, the cheetahs are on the prowl! we really thought we were gonna end up on the West Coast.

Becca  05:38
No regrets. Kind of.

Hayley  05:40
excuse the fact that some of these insiders may sound lame it’s a year later. Cut Dr. Phil some slack. That’s actually emotional, we’ll unpack that after. Well, since you’re most likely crying by now and/or completely freaked out, I got something that will cheer you up: the fourth is a super gorgeous baby. Like do me please. Oh my god. I definitely did not mean that. I’m a little Russian with my Russian hat – I am Russian just to be clear. Loves it. I’m still throwing out Paris Hilton lines. “Slide along side Yeah, baby. That’s right. I’m gonna show you the time of your life.” Tomorrow, 2006 Cheetah girls concert. So this is when we went to that! Say it loud and proud girls, it’s cheetahlicious! Peace, love, and cheetah! Chyeah boy. and today’s my birthday party ow ow sexy. Oh, sorry about inviting BEEP. I don’t have the strength to make up another name. Three days until my birthday and of course 11 days til Christmas. Glinda is the biggest bitch I hope she fucking dies in hell. I wonder if I’m married to Zac Efron/Justin Timberlake/the fourth/Jane yet. When you get this call me up. Love you Oprah

Becca  07:38
You sent this in the mail.

Hayley  07:39
Shut up. love, Hayley/Dr. Phil/cheetah sister/Shakira Shakira

Becca  07:49
Are we the exact same people as we were?

Hayley  07:51
We are. Wait for the P.S. – P.S. How is Fabian, our gorgeous child? I think we need to talk about Fabian.

Becca  08:00
I’m gonna post a photo. He’s still hanging on the wall.

Hayley  08:04
I have not discussed Fabian in a long time till now. Actually, you should describe where he was to you back up.

Becca  08:11
Okay. A family friend of mine adopted a child in Ecuador who was being fed and housed by their donations.

Hayley
Right.

Becca
So it was one of those programs right where you do like 10 cents a day, or whatever it is – Feed the Children. They’re very, you know, awesome people for doing that. And they had a photo of the child named Fabian and I just like sent one to Hayley. I sent a photo of him to Hayley and we began to love him. I think we sent letters to him.

Hayley
Yeah, that was weird. Oh, my God. That’s a whole other podcast.

Becca
So that photo of Fabian is still hanging at their house. And I always like touch it when I go for good luck

Hayley  08:53
Do they still support Fabian?

Becca  08:56
He’s an adult. Yeah, I would imagine he’s older than us.

Hayley 09:01
He’s older than us?

Becca  09:03
I mean, that photo was old when I took it. He was a child when we were children. So he’s at least 20 Something

Hayley 09:15
If Fabian is listening know that we still think of you,

Becca  09:19
Little Daniel, Little Jacob, Little Fabian. We miss you. We miss all of our littles. And the fourth. He was clearly important. He was defining

Hayley  09:34
Absolutely and that’s why he’s been such a big character in this story. So I’m really glad y’all got to hear a lot about the fourth and our love for him because he is a big piece of our hearts then and now.

Becca  09:45
So let’s talk about Dr. Phil because you had just texted me some news mere days ago.

Hayley  09:52
So as we’ve really covered, we love Dr. Phil and have since the dawn of time. Just this week, Dr. Phil did announce that he is going to end his show after this. After 21 Beautiful seasons, it’s not right, but it’s okay.

Becca  10:12
I’m not okay with it because we never got to go be in the audience dude.

Hayley  10:15
I know being in his virtual audience was cool, but it wasn’t enough. You know, here’s a fun fact about me. This is so embarrassing and is really gonna make me sound super old. But on Facebook I’m in a group called Phinatics, with a “Ph”

Becca  10:34
I would have guessed that was like Phineas and Ferb fan page

Hayley  10:40
This group is like the official one. So sometimes, and by sometimes. I mean, like, once a year, Dr. Phil himself will come on and chat. it’s not even him. You know? Someone’s writing something for him, but it makes him feel real. Yeah. So it makes people feel like it’s legit. And as you can imagine, I mean, to be fair, part of the reason half of the reason I follow this is because the stuff people write in here is hysterical. I’m going to show it to you later. It’s absolute gold. So not only do I love Dr. Phil, but I think this is hysterical. And people were freaking out about this in the group and someone had written what is Dr. Phil going to do now without the show

Becca  11:17
Retire! He’s given so much.

Hayley  11:24
And I think after reading that, it made me okay with it, because I’m like, Wow, this poor man, like people will just take take from him. I shouldn’t say poor man. He’s like the richest man. But you know what I mean?

Becca  11:35
Yeah. Like, there comes a point in life where you’re just like, don’t want to do that shit. And that’s fair. I mean, we can’t just like give him full credit that he hasn’t been problematic at all

Hayley  11:43
right, we have to address you know, there have been instances. I’ve stood by Dr. Phil. I love Dr. Phil and no one’s perfect. I cheers him to 21 seasons

Becca  12:02
Obviously, you know, his connection to Oprah used to be something that we loved, but now I see it as a problem.

Hayley  12:10
Yeah, it is something that is messy and unfortunate.

Becca  12:15
Do we want to talk about Oprah because I did find a relic from Oprah. My loving days of Oprah.

Hayley
Okay. I’m curious.

Becca
So I was going through my email from 2006. Yeah. Cindy, my mom shout out. Yes. Email with her every day. Yes. And I would also ask her to like edit my papers. And my parents were just great at editing. Yeah, that’s great. I sent her a paper that I wanted to read a snippet to give you all an understanding of where I was at

Hayley
Absolutely.

Becca
We just find it really quick. So this was from October 26 2006. Weirdly, my birthday. Giving it all out there. Um so we were watching the movie Pay it Forward in English class, which I think is weird.

Hayley  13:04
I think we watched that in English as well. I remember watching that at school.

Becca  13:07
But it’s a dark movie, like the kid dies at the end

Hayley
Yeah, it is kind of sad. Spoiler alert.

Becca  13:15
There are endless ways to make a difference in the world, but it’s impossible to help others without good character of your own. After watching Pay it Forward, I’ve realized that nothing in this world should be taken for granted. I’ve shown good character in the past by volunteering, giving donations and just helping others. Everyone’s deeds for others add up over time and it and help to exemplify good character. In my opinion, Oprah Winfrey is an outstanding representation of character. She shows this every day by helping the people of the world. She realizes that she is very fortunate to have what she has and is always generous with her wealth. Oprah exemplifies what it is to be a good person. And she is my role model because she shows qualities in herself that not everyone possesses.

Hayley 14:02
She really loved Oprah guys, she really did.

Becca  14:08
Yeah, Oprah shows qualities that others don’t possess, like maybe like sociopathy and narcissism to get them to the top.

Hayley  14:15
Yeah, like maybe dark characteristics in terms of like evil. What do you know about Oprah that we need to discuss? Because I don’t know full stories

Becca  14:28
Yeah, I mean, she is a person that has gone from a very low place, right to the top, the very top. And you always have to question that.

Hayley
that’s, I’ll give you that.

Becca
Yeah. So I showed Tyler my boyfriend her Wikipedia page, because like he just did not know about Oprah, which is another problem. But he read about her like bio, and he’s like, how did she do this? How did she become as famous as she is? And I think that’s something that I’ve always admired about her right? But if you look at her story, it’s a lot of kind of exploiting others. Yeah. So I think she’s a really admirable person in some ways. But I think when she did get a platform, she maybe didn’t always use it in the way that I would have wanted her to.

Hayley
That’s fair.

Becca
But as a kid, I thought that was just normal to have the shows that she did. But now looking back, like a couple topics, I’ll give you examples of

Hayley
please.

Becca
She had Mary Kate and Ashley Olsen. We love Yeah, on her show. And I’m thinking like, do Gen Z know Mary Kate and Ashley?

Hayley
Now, of course, they transcend time.

Becca
They’re twins. Just that’s all you need.

Hayley 15:39
If you didn’t know that, you did not get this far.

Becca  15:42
So true. But Oprah had them on in 2004. You know, I’ve watched this interview many times, and she’s just shaming them for their size. And asking them their specific jean size on stage, which is weird, because they were going through eating disorders, right. So that always kind of bothered me there.

Hayley
Yeah.

Becca
Then there’s also just a lot that I’ve noticed now, like she’s really connected to Tony Robbins, who is problematic. She has interviewed people that maybe shouldn’t have a platform.

Hayley
Gotcha.

Becca
So those are the things that I feel about Oprah now as an adult that back then I just viewed her as like an idol or so I don’t have idols like that anymore. Other than Dr. Phil.

Hayley  16:28
So what I will say and not that I’m trying to defend Oprah at all, because I agree. I also think that was just an era of journalism, because if you think about it, Barbara Walters has done that, Diane Sawyer, like a lot of female journalists and men as well. But I know you’re thinking just because like, at least I would be thinking, you’re a woman. You should know that that’s like not okay to ask somebody. And I watched some of those interviews like some that Britney Spears had done with me with Barbara.

Becca
Oh, my gosh, she was so judgmental.

Hayley
Yeah. And, you know, I think not to blame it on the time because that doesn’t make it okay, but I think it was part of that time. It just doesn’t feel good now.

Becca  17:10
I agree. Knowing what we know now. It’s kind of the way I feel when I rewatched Degrassi. Things went without being noticed that would be noticed now. And there was so much victim blaming, we don’t have to go into like a full detailed analysis of Degrassi, but like, it’s a problem.

Hayley  17:30
Yeah, and I don’t even think it was just Degrassi, just so many shows from that time, sometimes I’ll even watch Friends, which I love Friends, but some things I’ll see, I’m like, that would not be okay today. Like, you could not have gotten away with that today. So it’s just a very different time.

Becca  17:45
And yeah, even the music of the time, like anything went in music

Hayley  17:49
Black Eyed Peas, let’s get – I’m not gonna say it, don’t worry. I’m not gonna say it. But like, the fact that let’s get it started was what it was. We didn’t bat an eye at that time. I mean, someone did, because that’s why they changed it. But true as kids, we were like, oh, that’s just what it’s called.

Becca  18:08
It’s not weird at all. This is normal. So I’m glad we’re adults in the era we are. I think we’d be worse people if we were adults in 2006.

Hayley  18:19
Oh, yes, for sure. I think that we were born in the perfect era. As much as there’s things I’d like to complain about. I think we were perfect at missing the social media wave when we were in high school. I think we just got so lucky and missed that and now we’re 30 in this day and age and it just kind of feels right

Becca  18:38
it does. It feels like we have gone through this time where we didn’t have internet and wouldn’t have access to the things we do now. But we know how to use it better than we would have back then.

Hayley  18:54
Right? We would have definitely just not been okay on the internet. And we’ve talked about this before but it’s in so many ways. It’s something that keeps me up at night occasionally. So I am glad that we’re here today and more responsible on social media.

Becca  19:07
I want to give a quick shout out to North West on Tik Tok because it gives me life and hope for the next generation. She’s like I’m here and I’m just being myself. And I love that. So shout out to North west. I love that girl.

Hayley  19:30
I don’t think we’ve talked about this yet on the podcast so it’s worth bringing up when we did try to have a brief YouTube career

Becca  19:42
Wixelstein Brownies

Hayley  19:46
We should try to find that! so we only made to my memory one YouTube video.

Becca  19:52
We didn’t have much access to like a camera record videos so I’m pretty sure whenever we had a chance we would make a video which wasn’t very often

Hayley  20:03
no and the only one I remember is Wixelstein Brownies.

Becca  20:06
It was the only one that had like a title and a script and we had costumes! you were wearing that hat

Hayley  20:13
so let me paint y’all a picture we basically were trying to copy the muffins video. if you’re from that era, you know the muffins YouTube video is iconic. So basically we wanted to copy that idea and for some reason, I was wearing a Halloween costume. I think I was trying to be like a gangster so I had a fedora. But it was like this pinstripe pink outfit. I loved that outfit. yeah, we just imagined the muffins video only way lower budget and with brownies

Becca  20:54
And we called ourselves Wixelstein brownies. Yeah, I want to know where we came up with that

Hayley  20:59
I can’t remember where that came from.

Becca  21:01
I feel like we had like a Wizards of Waverly Place vibe

Hayley 21:05
Yeah, that tracks

Becca  21:07
I’m trying to think of like why we would have called it that.

Hayley  21:11
that is something maybe season two will discover. To find that video.

Becca  21:17
I did go into my old YouTube to look for it, obviously. Yeah, no luck. But I found some videos, I found some ones of my sisters and I used to do like when you weren’t around. Yeah, I would have to use my sister’s as props.

Hayley 21:31
You’d have no other choice.

Becca  21:33
And so we would just try to get famous online. We used to send in videos to Ellen DeGeneres

Hayley  21:38
another person who turned out problematic

Becca  21:42
I used to like find ways to just infiltrate natural disasters with my help. Oh, it was Hurricane Katrina. Let me have a bake sale. And I would have my dad record it. And then we would send that into Ellen and we did that with another natural disaster. I swear to God, it’s very embarrassing.

Hayley  22:02
That is actually something I never knew about you.

Becca  22:05
Yeah, I used to try to get famous. We would like make several videos. This was not a one time thing. But I would have to ask my dad if he actually sent them in because he had said that he did but I could totally see that being like Yeah, honey, of course.

Hayley 22:18
Yeah probably like, God, I’m saving you from yourself

Becca  22:21
I’d go home every day after school like waiting for us to be up on screen.

Hayley 22:24
Oh, that’s actually quite sad.

Becca  22:28
It’s okay, it was fourth grade so it’s okay. I was a youngin

Hayley
Becca, man.

Becca
Yeah, this was in ninth grade so

Hayley 22:38
I wouldn’t even question it though.

Becca  22:42
If that were the case, we would be sending to Oprah and Dr. Phil.

Hayley  22:44
Oh I would have teamed up and it would have got sent in

Becca  22:47
I feel like YouTube was not what it is now. it was like you would upload a video and then there was nothing really you could do with it, like you couldn’t really famous on YouTube or online at all. But people did. I mean how did the muffins video even come about? because I don’t know

Hayley  23:02
they did muffins and shoes. I think it was the same people who made those videos

Becca  23:05
I just like had a moment. Salad Fingers.

Hayley  23:12
“I like rusty spoons” yo Salad Fingers. Okay, putting that out in the world. We’re really getting back there. I feel like that was even before high school right?

Becca  23:24
Salad Fingers has haunted me for so many years. We watched it together so many times in your dad’s house. Wow. Like we would just sit there on a Friday night rewatching the Salad Fingers video

Hayley  23:31
there are so many videos that make me feel uneasy just because of how young I was and how long I’ve been having that in my mind and fever dreams. Yes, Salad Fingers is a fever dream. Do you remember the banana phone? Ring? Ring? Ring? Ring? Ring? Ring? Ring? Banana phone?

Becca  23:53
Do you remember old Rick? from that era? These are great videos.

Hayley 24:01
Do you remember that badger badger badger badger

Becca  24:06
One thing people might not know about Hayley is like you have gone through so many phases of loving different animals. You will you keep their love. It’s not like you get rid of an anima. You just add on another animal that’s just like your spirit animal. Which is not okay to say anymore. I’m not going to use the term spirit animal.

Hayley
is that not good?

Becca
Not okay. It’s one that we should try like a different phrase. You just love and it’s really just animals

Hayley 24:34
For sure

Becca  24:35
It’s foxes, beavers – UMaine shut out – You love cheetahs

Hayley 24:42
cats, dogs,

Becca  24:44
rabbits.

Hayley  24:45
I love all animals. I’m not a big reptile person.

Becca  24:49
That’s okay.

Hayley  24:50
But I do love most animals. And yeah, I would say foxes have been like the most constant. I think I really had to commit to that after I got a giant Fox tattooed on my thigh.

Becca
True. You can’t really go back.

Hayley
But I could always fill this leg with all the animals that I love.

Becca  25:10
It’s a lot of big cats that you like. Are foxes cats?

Hayley  25:14
No, we’re gonna I don’t believe they’re feline, but I do have big cat energy. And I think that does have something to do with it

Becca  25:21
I love that you also have Corgi energy

Hayley
Cordy energy?

Becca
Corgi.

Hayley  25:26
Cordy is my cat for anyone wondering. Yeah, you know, just a vibe.

Becca  25:30
It’s fun. But anyway, love badgers. Love it.

Hayley  25:36
Oh, man. Sorry for that tangent guys. What do you want to end on? I could continue to talk forever. But I really do love that you found this letter that is our final, final letter. Our final finale letter, because this is just perfect that the fact that I wrote you a letter, must have saved it and then mailed it to you a year later. Is that how that worked?

Becca  26:03
I’m thinking about this now. Like, did you hold on to it? Or did you like send it to me and say like, save this until next year?

Hayley 26:11
I don’t think I would have trusted you to do that.

Becca  26:12
Did you just send it to me? And then I opened it and then was like, Oh, I’ll read it again.

Hayley 26:18
Hard to say

Becca  26:19
I love the energy. And I love that you did that. Amazing. It was so thoughtful and you were really thinking ahead into our relationship. And also just want to clarify the listeners as if that was your last letter to me ever. Like no, like hundreds?

Hayley  26:32
Yeah, no, that’s just the last letter you guys are gonna hear for this season. But yeah, there are copious amounts of notes to read hopefully in a season two

Becca  26:41
we’re literally only at the end of first semester of freshman year. There’s so much more

Hayley  26:45
Wow, we could do eight seasons and unpack every single semester.

Becca  26:50
I was I was just saying to Tyler yesterday that without these letters, I wouldn’t know what happened back in the day.

Hayley 26:58
I feel like these letters are such a gift. And I know that sounds like super cheesy, but the fact that we can go back and look at this stuff like right now guys, just to paint you a picture Becca has her laptop up from when would you say you bought this laptop?

Becca  27:12
This is from 2009

Hayley  27:14
Okay, yep, it has a Bernie 2016 sticker on it so it’s at least that old. The cover is the cheugiest of teals – beautiful

Becca  27:23
shout out to my dad, he got me this laptop in 2009. And it’s still running. It’s still kickin

Hayley  27:29
that is crazy. And I’m the type of person who will delete an email immediately after I’ve like taken care of it. You are such a good balance for me that you’re the opposite. Because I wouldn’t remember any of this if you haven’t saved.

Becca  27:43
Well, that’s funny because I was gonna send you a screenshot of my phone today. When I was driving up here it was six degrees out. So yeah, it’s really cold. But then I realized that if I sent this to you, you would judge the shit out of me. I have 1200 unread emails, 56 unread texts and 258 missed phone calls

Hayley  28:00
See, that would make me throw up. That would make me so anxious.

Becca  28:06
I’m an absolute mess. I’m a chaotic person

Hayley  28:08
But it paid off. We wouldn’t have a podcast if that weren’t the case, Becca

Becca  28:12
Oh, you could easily do this girl. I don’t know if it would be this awesome

Hayley 28:16
That’s what it is.

Becca  28:19
I love our energy together it balances. And if I was doing this alone, can you imagine it’d be like so into the details and it’d be annoying. Nobody wants to hear that. They’re like, why does this girl care about the history of Nashua, New Hampshire?

Hayley 28:37
Becca just cares, okay? And that’s why we love her.

Becca  28:41
There’s a lot of useless information in this brain.

Hayley  28:43
And I’m here to just guide it.

Becca  28:47
Like when I wake up in the middle of the night, I’m typically just like thrown into random fun facts about my life.

Hayley  28:55
It’s a beautiful thing. And I’m so glad we can share a lot of those with the general public now. So while we

Becca  28:59
I have no regrets

Hayley  29:02
At this point. It is what it is.

Becca  29:05
Well, we were talking about maybe just like revisiting some of the things we’ve done since we started.

Hayley
Let’s talk about it, Becca.

Becca
So we got this idea. Oh my gosh, like eight, nine months ago.

Hayley 29:17
Yes.

Becca  29:17
I feel like it came to us at the same time.

Hayley  29:19
Yeah, basically, we got the idea of the podcast because Becca had come up to actually go to a wedding that I was DJing. We went together and Becca helped me out. And she was telling me about how her mom had found all these artifacts, and we brewed on it overnight. Like neither of us had mentioned a podcast at all. We were just talking about the things you found. And then the next morning we got breakfast and just kind of locked eyes. And I was like should we do something with this?

Becca  29:43
it was so cool. We’re like, Yeah, we should. That’s where fever dream diaries was born

Hayley  29:48
at St. Joe’s Cafe.

Becca  29:52
the best breakfast sandwiches in the Northeast.

Hayley 29:55
Yeah, they should sponsor us for saying that. But honestly that’s where it was born. And I think the first couple of months, both of us were kind of like, you know, thinking about how we could actually make this happen. And it came together so well that I feel like not to be that girl, but I really feel like this was meant to be for us. Even if no one listened to this podcast ever. This was a really cool thing that Becca and I got to do together. And that was special

Becca  30:20
even if only our boyfriends listen, and maybe our moms, I know Cindy’s listening, shout out to our moms, but I think that that’s okay. Yeah, I feel like we’ve grown a lot together.

Hayley 30:33
We have a lot of moments. Oh, nine months, we really grew a baby.

Becca  30:42
A baby yeah, it was conceived at the reunion. No, actually a long time ago. But he was born at the reunion. It was conceived in the summer. Born and we gave birth him in the back of the dream machine

Hayley 30:56
And you’re now at his baptism.

Becca  30:59
I have the wine. And we will be opening it with Hayley’s nail

Hayley 31:05
on my little corkscrew nail. Oh my gosh.

Becca  31:09
So we have gone to some really fun throwback concerts.

Hayley  31:15
We’ve had a great year of concert since discovering the podcast idea. tell the good people.

Becca  31:21
So we did see Sheryl Crow.

Hayley 31:23
Oh my god. Amazing. Iconic. We got to the front. We should post some footage from the Sheryl Crow show cause we got to the front. I mean, Becca literally pushed us to the front people were not impressed by us. I don’t give a shit. I love Sheryl Crow.

Becca  31:41
So let me just say being that close she looks incredible. Iconic. She’s still like jammin out looking amazing. We love her. That was definitely a throwback because we’ve been rocking out to her since 2006.

Hayley
Yeah, probably even before to be honest. All of the bands we’ve seen.

Becca
I saw Hayley host and shake her as a stage of a Lil Jon show

Hayley  32:04
Yes, shout out to Bernie’s beach bar Hampton Beach Becca came through to our Hot Beach Bash. Lil Jon, Hot Radio Maine – shout out! That’s where I work and we put on his show. This was actually our third Lil Jon show which is amazing because I now feel maybe more comfortable than I should around Lil Jon. But yeah, I was hyping up the crowd and the fact that Becca got to be there was really awesome.

Becca  32:25
I got to see you just shake that booty onstage. Wow.

Hayley 32:29
Thank you. It was all for you.

Becca  32:32
It was so fun. It was like back in the moment of 2007, we’re at a high school dance and “get low” is playing. Like that was the vib

Hayley 32:40
You know, working for hip hop radio station. That’s been one of the biggest perks is we get to put on a lot of concerts. And a lot of the acts are people I lived for back in the day like we’ve had fabulous, we’ve had Big Boi of OutKast, obviously Lil Jon multiple times. So it’s been a really cool, full circle life that I’ve been living.

Becca  33:02
Like this is not a hip hop artist, but like can you just like give us a little tea about Ryan Cabrera.

Hayley  33:08
Oh my gosh. So Ryan Cabrera who I love, obviously, was actually the first artist interview I ever got to do. He came to town with O-town.

Becca  33:20
Throwback! I love it.

Hayley  33:21
I know and I was so nervous because I’d obviously never done an interview before but also Ryan Cabrera is basically the love of my life, so I got hammered like drunk drunk

Becca
I didn’t know you were in that video

Hayley
Yeah, I don’t remember a lot of that interview you’re kind of like giving eyes though.

Hayley
Like oh no Lord help me to be fair. I think he also was not throwing eyes, I meant drunk sorry. Yeah, Ryan Cabrera was not given me eyes but I did smell his little like Dora the Explorer cup that he had out back and it did not smell clean.

Becca
Was it lean?

Hayley  34:05
No, Becca! I think it was like probably Pinnacle Whipped vodka or something. And I feel like that’s what it takes

Becca
Yeah, I love that detail. Love that for you. Thank you for sharing that. And then we also did get to see my true favorite from back in the day. I’m blanking.

Hayley
Wow, obviously her favorite you must be talking about Lupe Fiasco.

Becca
I’m dying right now. Like you’ve gone to so many concerts I literally can’t remember

Hayley  34:40
She had a poster of this person up in her bedroom

Becca  34:43
Actually I didn’t, but yes Lupe Fiasco shout out. Thank you, Hayley. Amazing. That was really fun

Hayley  34:50
Yes, we’ve been blessed to go to a lot of great concerts this year. Hopefully we can keep it going. I know we have our festival coming up in Vegas. The when we were young Fest

Becca  34:59
Another thing we did together was we went to a casino! I lost all my money but oh well

Hayley  35:08
you know what we’re going to be at March 31, I believe is the date it’s a Friday in Boston at Paradise rock club. They’re doing this like Disney sing along throwback. So if anyone wants to go and you see us there let’s share a drink together and we’ll definitely be screaming and freaking out. We’ll be posting footage I’m sure as well if you’re not in the Boston area

Becca  35:33
Are we wearing Cheetah girls outfits. And I’m wearing a sweatshirt that Hayley got me for my birthday. That is just the most angelic cat with a flower crown and mushrooms and crystals on a log. Of course it is and I love it so much

Hayley 35:53
Man, I really do love all animals. Hmm, I’m weird. I never realized how weird that is about me.

Becca  35:58
I feel like that’s like something I would describe you as. You’re an animal lover.

Hayley  36:01
Oh, that’s cute. I mean, not that that’s weird. But the fact that I do always have another animal I like identify with.

Becca  36:09

We definitely bonded over all the animals like we had Patrick the cat

Hayley
Love Patrick

Becca
This cat was a cat that lived next door to me. And he would come to my house and just enter my home. Yeah. And he was invasive. Do you remember that?

Hayley 36:24
I remember almost every detail about him, which is what’s weird.

Becca  36:28
He was our neighbor’s cat. And they would shave the cat. And I’m like, that’s kind of mean. Yeah, I can hear and so he would come in my house. And we’d take photos of him and have photoshoots with Patrick.

Hayley  36:38
We’ll try to find some of that in our photo. Of course, we’ll add those to the social media as well. But yeah, we’ve just had a year of nostalgia. I feel like we’ve been going to a lot of these shows. Just we’ve been in this kind of vibe as well. You’ve been watching Degrassi as well and it’s just kind of where I’d like to stay. In the past.

Becca  36:58
We don’t need any future. I’m good.

Hayley  37:03
And if you’re comfortable with that as well meet us at Season Two because we’re gonna continue to stay in the past. it’s safe here. It’s comfortable here. fever dreams. Tell them where they can follow us everywhere, Becca

Becca  37:15
Yes, so the good people can go to feverdreamdiaries.com That is where you’re gonna find all our social media accounts. You can reach out to us if you feverdreamdiaries@gmail.com Send us all your juicy secrets. we need them.

Hayley
Yes. We’re not gonna have a season two without them. We need some more voices, please. We have had a few people from our high school offer to do interviews next season.

Becca 37:38
Big shout out to people from high school who have reached out to us about the podcast.

Hayley
Yes. Eric Engelhardt. We love you Amanda Hall. Yeah, I know you’re married girl. I’m still gonna call you Amanda Hall. my girl Karen Cooper. We hope to have some special guests next season as well.

Becca  37:54
Yes, thank you all for just the support and even if it’s just people from our high school who listen, that’s enough.

Hayley
That’s enough. Y’all already know all this stuff. So I don’t know why you’re even listening. Enjoy as if we didn’t tell you all this. And you still remember it’s a fun reminder.

Becca
Yeah, so it’s been a journey to the end of our first semester of high school. Still a lot to discover in second semester.

Hayley  38:22
Yes, they’ve been a couple of little hints but there’s more. there’s more so thank you all who have been along for the ride. We hope to see you for a second season in the meantime, stay freaky, Stay weird.

Becca  38:30
Stay dreamin. Stay fever dreamin

Hayley 38:33
until we meet again. We love you

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